Tuesday 2 February 2016

My biggest regret!


Everyday we regret many, many things that we did or didn't do and it can eat away at us so much.
Everyday I regret not saying goodbye to one handsome man the way I wish I had. My dog, Scooby. He was a beautiful Rottweiler and was the love of my family's life. He was like a gigantic teddy bear and wouldn't hurt a single person who approached him. Even our friends and family who didn't particularly like dogs, absolutely adored my Scooby Doo! Even my cats gave him so much loving! I grew up with Scooby from such a young age, before I could even walk or talk to be exact. (my god I'm starting to tear up already)

He was that dog that you really thought would live forever and you couldn't even imagine the day where he'd let go of his life and join doggy heaven. Of course, that day did come around and he started to loose the strength in his back legs and needed a lot of help to get up and downstairs. A lot of the time if he just couldn't push himself upstairs, either me or my mum would sleep downstairs with him so he wasn't all by himself. One day after we had been to a christening, we got home and he was laid on the kitchen floor and couldn't move at all and that's when I knew he wasn't going to last any longer and it broke my heart. For the rest of the evening, I laid down on the kitchen floor with him until I had to eat or sleep, I just didn't want to move away from him because I was scared he'd disappear. The next day he began coughing up blood, my mum had rang the doctors and it was official... It was his last day. As I knew in a few hours he'd be gone, I stayed in my room and just cried. I didn't go to the doctors to say a proper goodbye because my heart was in pieces and that is what I will always regret. I will regret not being on the floor with him as he shut his eyes for the very last time. (and now I'm sobbing) I sat at my window for hours just waiting to see him run down the streets back home and when that moment never came, I just sobbed and sobbed even more.


Like I said before, he was like a teddy bear, so loving, so protective and you couldn't not adore him. I truly believe we gave him the best 12 year's he could have ever had and if he could talk, I'm sure he'd agree with me. Something that also will forever be in my heart is the Scooby Doo TV shows and films. We named Scooby obviously after Scooby Doo and that means so much to me, I will forever adore my Scooby Doo and the TV loving Scooby Doo more than anything in the entire world! It's never fun to lose a pet, they become a part of your family, a best friend, your protector.

You no longer greet me as I walk through the door,
You're not there to make me smile,
To make me laugh anymore,
Life seems quiet without you,
You were far more than a pet,
You were a family member, a friend,
A loving soul I'll never forget,
It will take time to heal,
For the silence to go away,
I still listen for you,
And miss you everyday,
You were such a great companion,
Constant, Loyal and True,
My heart will always wear,
The paw prints left by you. - Author Unknown

I love you Scooby Doo, forever and always x


- Shelby xxx

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4 comments:

  1. This is so beautiful and sad.
    Two of my dogs died and I didn't know that I could survive it. They are truly a family!

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    1. I'm sorry to hear that! It really is hard to believe you can fight through the pain, it's been about 5 years since Scooby died and the pain doesn't feel any less and I still can't hold back tears when talking about him <3

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    2. I know. That feeling never goes away. It's just easier not to think about it. If that's even possible...
      Stay strong! ♥

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    3. Thank you, you too sweetie! <3

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